Blarghhargh

You know for a while there was a point where I didn't feel stressed out about my RPing. Even if I thought people weren't interested in my characters, I'd tag anyway. I'd force plotting oocly, I'd jump in conversations, try to make myself involved despite everything.

Now? I find myself second guessing everything. I get worried about responding to other people's plotting stuff, get worried about tagging people, worry about trying to involve myself in other people's conversations. Worry, worry, worry.

And now I think I've accidentally made myself distant to people. I keep telling myself "get over it dammit, it's just RP!" and yet I still struggle along. All of this, is irrational of course. I just wish I could drill that into my brain.

I think stressing over real life problems aren't helping either. Blah, I guess if no one's complaining I shouldn't worry about who I tag.

Anyway those are my emo problems of the day. I promise I'll try to hold back on these, it's just nice to be able to ramble on sometimes.

And now for real life things!

I'm making a Derpy Hooves plush for a friend, and a Supernatural plush for another friend. I have patterns for both now, I just need to get my ass in gear.

It's been a hellish week, I've been broke since last Sunday and I've been working since last Sunday. Friday is when things look up, I'll have money and a couple days off! Of course, with my hours going down this means I gotta get serious about job hunting too. I don't wanna work at this job forever.

Batman, vampires, and ponies.

So last couple of posts I mentioned my Vampire the Requiem tabletop game, that ended with Batman going all blood frenzy on a mobster. Well thanks to that hot mess, he miiiight get killed by the Prince next session if the questioning doesn't go too well. What does that mean for my character? Well I play Robin, so that means I might get promoted to Nightwing.

Or die. I might die too.

Anywho, looked up the new list of episodes of My Little Pony episodes. There's one where Rainbow Dash learns to appreciate books after being stuck in a hospital? I actually have my complaints on how Rainbow Dash is portrayed this season. It's weird because it's their character and they can do what they want, but have you ever had a character that felt kind of out-of-character in their own canon?

Anyway, they've made Rainbow Dash more of an asshole this season, and it's a little bit grating. There's something I don't really care for about this season, and I can't put my finger on it (well maybe the ridiculous number of Cutie Mark Crusader episodes. I like them but come on now). It kinda feels like the worst parts of all the characters' personalities are getting shoved in your face more.

Not to say this season is bad, just something feels a little off. Then again the season is still pretty new, so I'll keep giving it a chance.