Blarghhargh

[falconpawnch]

You know for a while there was a point where I didn't feel stressed out about my RPing. Even if I thought people weren't interested in my characters, I'd tag anyway. I'd force plotting oocly, I'd jump in conversations, try to make myself involved despite everything.

Now? I find myself second guessing everything. I get worried about responding to other people's plotting stuff, get worried about tagging people, worry about trying to involve myself in other people's conversations. Worry, worry, worry.

And now I think I've accidentally made myself distant to people. I keep telling myself "get over it dammit, it's just RP!" and yet I still struggle along. All of this, is irrational of course. I just wish I could drill that into my brain.

I think stressing over real life problems aren't helping either. Blah, I guess if no one's complaining I shouldn't worry about who I tag.

Anyway those are my emo problems of the day. I promise I'll try to hold back on these, it's just nice to be able to ramble on sometimes.

And now for real life things!

I'm making a Derpy Hooves plush for a friend, and a Supernatural plush for another friend. I have patterns for both now, I just need to get my ass in gear.

It's been a hellish week, I've been broke since last Sunday and I've been working since last Sunday. Friday is when things look up, I'll have money and a couple days off! Of course, with my hours going down this means I gotta get serious about job hunting too. I don't wanna work at this job forever.

Comments

[coffeerocket]

We haven't really RP'd in forever, but I think I should tell you that you should relax. Nobody doesn't want to play with you, or plot with you. There are dozens of people in your games who probably think the exact same way. "What if so and so doesn't want me to respond?" while on the other end, so and so is going, "Oh man, I hope people I haven't played with before respond."

RP is all I'm really qualified to talk about, and I know it's hard to say "Don't think so hard about it." But think about what goes through your mind when you make a post. Most people think things like "I wonder if I can get new CR out of this," or "I hope people tag..." It's not just you. Everyone wants to play--we're just so caught up in the "what if"s that we forget why we joined these games--to play.

... Yeah that's probably not my place to say, but I figure it'd be okay to drop a note.

[falconpawnch]

Ahhh yes, and in the end I know it's a silly thing to think. After all, it's just fictional characters on the internet. Those moods tend to creep up on me, but they always come and go.

But yes, you're absolutely right. The real reason is just to play and not worry.