Blarghhargh
Jan. 13th, 2012 01:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
falconpawnchYou know for a while there was a point where I didn't feel stressed out about my RPing. Even if I thought people weren't interested in my characters, I'd tag anyway. I'd force plotting oocly, I'd jump in conversations, try to make myself involved despite everything.
Now? I find myself second guessing everything. I get worried about responding to other people's plotting stuff, get worried about tagging people, worry about trying to involve myself in other people's conversations. Worry, worry, worry.
And now I think I've accidentally made myself distant to people. I keep telling myself "get over it dammit, it's just RP!" and yet I still struggle along. All of this, is irrational of course. I just wish I could drill that into my brain.
I think stressing over real life problems aren't helping either. Blah, I guess if no one's complaining I shouldn't worry about who I tag.
Anyway those are my emo problems of the day. I promise I'll try to hold back on these, it's just nice to be able to ramble on sometimes.
And now for real life things!
I'm making a Derpy Hooves plush for a friend, and a Supernatural plush for another friend. I have patterns for both now, I just need to get my ass in gear.
It's been a hellish week, I've been broke since last Sunday and I've been working since last Sunday. Friday is when things look up, I'll have money and a couple days off! Of course, with my hours going down this means I gotta get serious about job hunting too. I don't wanna work at this job forever.
Now? I find myself second guessing everything. I get worried about responding to other people's plotting stuff, get worried about tagging people, worry about trying to involve myself in other people's conversations. Worry, worry, worry.
And now I think I've accidentally made myself distant to people. I keep telling myself "get over it dammit, it's just RP!" and yet I still struggle along. All of this, is irrational of course. I just wish I could drill that into my brain.
I think stressing over real life problems aren't helping either. Blah, I guess if no one's complaining I shouldn't worry about who I tag.
Anyway those are my emo problems of the day. I promise I'll try to hold back on these, it's just nice to be able to ramble on sometimes.
And now for real life things!
I'm making a Derpy Hooves plush for a friend, and a Supernatural plush for another friend. I have patterns for both now, I just need to get my ass in gear.
It's been a hellish week, I've been broke since last Sunday and I've been working since last Sunday. Friday is when things look up, I'll have money and a couple days off! Of course, with my hours going down this means I gotta get serious about job hunting too. I don't wanna work at this job forever.